It is good for the morale, that there is more space in the kitchen. I have the start of my inner strength of will. I have just worked through the memories stirred, which helps the current complaint. I have my moments of wobbles. It is never going to be easy; with no thanks to the ripple non response effect. The fact I am struggling this far down the line is the fact, that the failed planned care was not still put into action ... to continue with considerations to grief and although the body removed. The items did not. I would have needed support more support than ever.
I am laying ghosts to rest ... whilst they are stirred once again. I may have gone round in circles, overwhelmed, injured, fallen over out in public too, on pavements, in buses on people and so forth which lack of due care and attention from those who are paid to be there for society needs when we are struggling. And rebuilding my strength. The lack of knowledge of how to care ... surrounded us.
If others struggled with the overwhelmness... What does that say ... ? ...
I keep coming back to being trained to work in the palliative care part of life ... The trouble is targets forget about Dignity in Dying ...
I was so brutally treated in the sweep of life from living with OUR complex requirements ... And then there was one ... in a cluttered home, now with a death scene to contend with ... Hello ? in a mish mash of life and everyone coming to me to co-ordinate ...
I was in no fit state to operate and function in life ... Once the arrangements for our daughter's welfare, the funeral ... The other items I will not mention ... Taken care of ... No wonder I just wanted to lay in the cold until it too ... Took me ...
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