... Exterminate ...

a life lumber ...

... the creativity suppressed for a long time ...

Thy creative ways in blogs not the rooms walls ... all the while blockades of time in the way of the walls in places ... I have a real pinky theme going on one blog: published for my eyes only currently ... 

... Although no way, would I decorate my home with some of the designs ... and the stamps stencils and crafts now hidden in the muck of unnecessary stuff to me left .... 

When the majority said I am still young to get married again. I think the stuff surround will put me off... I have the pulls and tugs of the nest experience again ... do I, don't I ... 

My current health status brings this to the fore ... reminding to rid the unnecessary and just keep the basic functions to go back out in the world again ...

Little snippets of

festive feasts in store this weekend. And a sunrise walk out to finish the shopping from before and met some more amazing people. The style of shoppings gives clues to much, and many talking points. 

I need to remember to tell sister (who is single) she needs to go shopping more (she lives back at home with Mum) there are plenty of singles in the aisles to meet ... ! 

... now more decisions

the phase into another year .... housing options and aspirations beyond the door in tandem with the shuffle and dispersal ... the plans for the long in short. 

Already many difficulties along with anger and stuff. The long term shock in grief never far away despite this revival ... 

The spaciousness slow in appearing. I still a lot to get on top of. The health appointments another to bring in line again ... 

That life easily falls apart in part and stays there. It is as hard to clamber back in and on the ride as was, as it was in how long it came upon us ... 

Dilemmas

in a November with new opportunities coming into play. This followed into the next month. A month with many experiences offered, to see where my feelings lie. The mix in life in where it now sits with me. The try out of environments in plenty which in itself is more than amazingly beneficial to me ...

With the energy replenished a tad from this time, a tad self esteem restored, it is now for a different approach in my own appraisal ... and some ass kicked ...

One of the many winter walks, though this one when the sun was  closing for the day ...